I am Ashamed

What a mess we can make of our lives. We can live under shame and guilt for not measuring up to God's standards. There is not one person on this earth, unless they are full of unrelentless pride, that can say they haven't messed up and disappointed God and others. Pride shifts the blame. Just like Adam in the Garden. When God confronted Adam, he blamed the woman and God. Adam and Eve hid from God and they were naked and ashamed. Isn't that what we do? We hide from God and then quietly repent and then hope and pray that no one finds out. Especially among other Christians. God forbid your Pastor finds out! 

Billions of lives are wandering the earth unaware that their destiny is headed down a dark, slippery slope to the flames of hell. Most of us are not concerned about those lives. Why? Because it's all about us. I mean...why should I be concerned for others when they are not concerned for me? I mean...no one cares to hear what I have to say. Right? Why should I say anything about my failures to others? In my selfish mind, I am a man pleaser. Not a God-pleaser. In my selfish nature, I know people will JUDGE me IF I choose to be transparent and expose myself. They will throw me to the Lions! So, instead, I will hide from others and put a fake face on. I will look perfect on the outside so I don't bring shame to God or my family. No one will know about my shameful sins. I will put them in a box for storage or sweep them under the rug. This is what most of you think. You think, that the more you HIDE, the safer you are from the contempt of others. What a lonely, empty life. 

Satan has deceived you. His job is to keep your mouth shut, as billions of people's' souls hang in the balance between heaven and hell. Instead of being transparent about your sins of immorality, drunkenness, drugs, porn, divorce, adultery, lies, abuse, anger, hate, bitterness, slander, racism, stealing, jail, abortion, etc., you hide them so no one will know what YOU have done. You get defensive if ANYONE asks you about it. Have you ever thought about your pride? You won't talk about how God delivered you because you are afraid to be judged? If asked, you give a quick one word answer in anger, "God forgave me!" Can you imagine how the Holy Spirit is grieved because you won't share your testimony to the world? You are full of shame, pride and guilt. Some of you haven't forgiven yourselves because it is rooted in PRIDE. Others can't receive God's forgiveness because it is still rooted in PRIDE. 

Until we repent of our PRIDE, we cannot be used by God. Most of our secrets will die with us. Until we lay ourselves at the foot of the cross of Jesus, we are in the way. What a lonely life to be so closed up.

"Very truly I tell you, unless a kernel of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains only a single seed. But if it dies, it produces many seeds. Anyone who loves their life will lose it, while anyone who hates their life in this world will keep it for eternal life". -John 12:24

Forget what others think. Forget the shame it brings on your family. Live for God. Your family cannot save you! Let GOD use you! It will set you free! Your testimony will bring MANY to Christ. If you lose your life for Jesus, you will find it. You no longer have to live under shame or guilt once you receive the Love of God who is Jesus His Son. Think about how many people you can help by being open and transparent. It's time to get a backbone and humble yourself. Do you realize it takes a humble person to allow God to use them no matter what the price is? What price are you willing to pay? I pray many who read this will realize that God was not surprised by your choices and that He wants to use our failures and freedom as a living testimony to those who have failed and also currently struggle. People need HOPE in our world! Let's give it to them! Our God is powerful and He is the Mighty Counselor and Deliverer! True believers will REJOICE at your testimony! Don't worry about the rest.